If you were in my place...
03 July 2016 | 22:54 | 0 comments
Hi, I'm back. Actually, I'm pretty bored doing nothing at home, so I decided to write something on this blog. Ramadhan will be leaving soon ๐ญ Pretty sad. But, there's Syawal!! Hehehehehe, I've done all of the raya preparation like making biskut raya, decorating the house and also SHOPPING ๐ So today, I want to write about my experience about acne. Yaaa, ACNE. ๐๐ผ๐๐ผ
If you know me, you will know how my face look like. My face is full of acne๐ I started to get acne when I was 13. During that time it is not really bad, I just had like 2 to 3 acne and usually I will breakout during periods. But everything change when I try a new skincare regime. Most of my friends used it at school.. So, I give it a try bcoz I really see a huge difference in my friend's skin like their face are getting fairer day by day and also look radiant. I used the skincare for quite a long time, 6 months maybe. After that I break out a lot. My face become thinner, it looks red and full of cystic acne. From that time, I used to avoid mirrors. I don't want to look my face in the mirror. It's horrible๐ I kept on crying almost everyday knowing that my face condition is getting worse. Thank God, I got a family๐ My parents send me to a dermatologists, and the dr gave me some antibiotics( clindamycin) to eat daily for about 3 months. My face cleared up. But the worst fact that I've to face is, ACNE SCARRING. Yeah, I was left with a lot of acne scarring all over my face. I lost my self confidence... I didn't socialize with my friends and also afraid going out and facing the world. I need to put on a lot of make up just to cover the scarring that I had. Maybe , most of the people said that it is just a small matter, but it is not for me. Right now, I'm still looking for a cure for my scarring. I'm decided to try a laser but my parents was afraid of the results ๐ That s all from me
crying
25 March 2015 | 02:41 | 0 comments
Assalamualaikum.
Entry ni aku buat dengan air mata yang mengalir dan mata yang mulai membengkak:'(
Aku rasa macam aku tak da siapa dalam hidup. Langsung tidak dihargai, pernah rasa kah perasaan tu? Tapi ini lagi sakit. Keluarga sendiri dak hargai kita :'( Allah sja yg tahu macam mana aku rasa, terpinggir, orang buat dak tau. Aku bukan minta lebih macam orang lain, aku dak prnah minta lebih. Cukuplah, jangan menabur janji kalau tidak pasti. Sakit tau ka? For me tarikh tu sgt penting, ya lah, for me. I don't know other people. Aku tak minta lebih, just jangan pinggirkan aku, buat aku macam dak penting pun. Aku manusia aku ada perasaan. Aku juga mau kasih sayang. Jujur aku kecewa, org yg paling aku sayang lupa semua tu. Ya lah, siapalah aku di hati dorang, cuma kawan yang bodoh dan lembap, jelek, anak yg telah mengecewakan orang tua. Semua aku, aku terima biar sakit. Ya Allah dengarlah doaku ya Allah :'( cepat cepat lah sambung belajar supaya boleh keluar dari tempat ni. Tempat di mana aku langsung tidak dihargai. Kbye.